Weddings

So I went to a wedding and I was doing okay with every aspect of it, until the traditional "First Dance" as a married couple. However it wasn't because I am lonely because I'm not. After thinking about it when I got home I realized that it was because I'm scared. Scared of finding someone to be happy with, to share my life with, "dance" with, start a family with. Because what if I do and then it fails like it did before I don't think I could take it if I had another failed marriage. I know, I know there is someone for everyone but what if I found him and didn't JUMP at the opportunity to be with him and then missed out? I can't believe the things I am finding out about myself thru my journey of self discovery. Well that is all I'm going to bed!