Last post for 2012

   I know I haven't been very good and this whole blogging thing lately I mean it's been over 2 months but I have been busy. So now I have a little time I can update all of you on my life. In August I met a wonderful man who treats me the way a woman should be treated. We met online thru a friend of mine and we have been talking ever since and even though we have not met in person yet, I know that I want to spend the rest of my life and eternity with him call me crazy but I love him he has a sweet little girl and I can't wait to meet them both and I know that God brought us together and I will be forever grateful to God for bringing me the man I truly deserve! In September I stared school and with that and work I keep pretty busy, I feel like my life is finally going in the right direction. I mean I'm going to school to get a degree in something I love, I have a man who treats me right, my life is really good. I have also forgiven my EX which for me was no easy task but I feel like I can finally move on, and I have also lost about 20 pounds! Now seeing as this is my last post of 2012, I feel I need to share some things I have been reflecting on. I have been pondering oddly enough about my life and how I can improve it, I know I just said my life is good but everyone can improve in life even if things are going good for them. Now I do have a few goals for the coming year for me and yes I will share them.

      1. Work on my relationship with God

      2. Exercise at least 3 times a week so I can reach my goal weight quicker

      3. Eat better so I can be healthier

      4. Pay it forward I want to make a difference in the lives of others

   That's it those are my goals there are not many but let's face it how many people set to many goals for themselves and then get discouraged when they don't achieve them. I know that I can achieve these goals because I am determined to do so. When I set my mind to something I make sure it happens. Anyway thanks for reading my silly little thoughts.     

MEN and school

So I have been talking with some men and I just don't understand why they think that after having only talked to me for a week they "JUST KNOW" that I am "THE ONE" or their "DREAM GIRL" I mean seriously a week!!!!! A week is not enough time to know a person well enough to say you want to marry them!! I am so tired of telling these desperate men NO!! Sorry for this little rant I just needed to get this off my chest. On a happier note I have been going to school at SLCC since August and I am loving it! I am taking a ASL class and I love it. Learning about the Deaf is completely fascinating to me, learning how they live and how they communicate is just AWESOME!!! I am am currently taking an Interior Design class and cannot wait to take more I am only in my first year of school. The more I do in this class the more excited I get about getting my degree in interior design.

Weddings

So I went to a wedding and I was doing okay with every aspect of it, until the traditional "First Dance" as a married couple. However it wasn't because I am lonely because I'm not. After thinking about it when I got home I realized that it was because I'm scared. Scared of finding someone to be happy with, to share my life with, "dance" with, start a family with. Because what if I do and then it fails like it did before I don't think I could take it if I had another failed marriage. I know, I know there is someone for everyone but what if I found him and didn't JUMP at the opportunity to be with him and then missed out? I can't believe the things I am finding out about myself thru my journey of self discovery. Well that is all I'm going to bed!

What a ride so far!

I know it's been awhile since I have written anything. There has been a lot going on lately at the end of January I was in the hospital with kidney stones and a kidney infection talk about scary!! I had a stent put in to help the infection heal (a stent is a thin long tube.) However in 2006 I had the same exact thing happen and never got the stent out. Apparently they are not supposed to stay in for 6 years so it has caused damage to one of my kidneys. Well I will finally be getting them out on Aug 1st  I can't wait I will finally be able to do all the "normal" things in my life again without feeling pain or fatigue! I am scared though I mean it's like a surgery and anything can happen. On a happier note I did get a new nephew and he lights up my life so much he is 5 and so cute. My brother and sister-in-law adopted him from another country. For privacy issues & by the request of my brother and sister-in-law I will be calling him Z. He has been here in Utah since May and has brought so much joy to all of us. Especially my brother and sister-in-law. Anyway that's all for now I will post about my recovery from surgery. xoxo